Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Hello my girl...

It has been a while since I last wrote, but always know that I am thinking of you, and I know your Daddy is too. There is lots to tell you so here we go...

Well Daddy and I have nearly purchased a big block of land for us and you to live on, 200 acres in a little town not too far away, where we hope to build our dream home and make you a lovely room with a cot and toys and a beautiful garden to play in. There are kangaroos in the wild and a creek and lots of space - Daddy and I love it there and we think you will too. We hope to start building the house by the end of the year, and have it in time for bringing you home.

Our other news is that you have a cousin. Aidan Samuel was born a couple of weeks ago on March 11th and he is gorgeous. Aunty Debbie is doing well and it is wonderful to see her in her new role as a mother. Uncle Gordon is enjoying fatherhood again and Nan (Mumsie) is overjoyed at being a Grandma (but don't call her that - she doesn't like it!!). And I am loving being an aunty, and am getting lots of experience in changing nappies, burping and putting him down to sleep.

My other news is that I can see! I know that must sound funny, but your Mummy has had very bad eyesight for a long time, and I finally got up the courage (and the money) to get my eyes lasered so I don't need to wear glasses. I had the surgery yesterday and today I can see! I always wanted to get this done before we came to China to get you, so I didn't have to worry about glasses and contact lenses, and I could just concentrate on you. And while it was a bit uncomfortable it was nice to do something for myself after all the heartache of the last few years.

It has now been 2 months since we submitted our adoption application to DoCS and we thought we would've heard something from them by now, but we haven't. We will give them a call next week and see what is happening. I guess this is the hard part of the process - waiting. And this is only the start of it I am sure. The next step is to work with the Social Worker who will make sure we will make a good family - I am sure we will.

Daddy and I are guessing all the time where you are, and I think your 'Tummy Mummy' is about 8 months pregnant with you and you will be born in May - near your Daddy's birthday. My guess is that we will come to you in China in February next year - but it is only a guess and maybe this is something I do so I can focus. It has been nice watching Aunty Debbie through her pregnancy as I can now imagine how your Birth Mummy is looking and feeling - a lot of the time I wish I was with her and could kiss her tummy and talk to you, and let her know that you will be OK and very loved. I imagine her focus is very much on you now, and she may be feeling very sad as the time comes to give birth to you, I feel very sad for her too, but she will be someone who we will talk about a lot together, and we will remember her often. I already find myself thinking of her and wondering how she is doing. She will be a big part of both our lives - I promise.

Well my precious child - where-ever you are, my heart is there also. You are the last thing I think about before I sleep and the first thing when I wake up.

Love you,
Mummy (and Daddy) xxx